Wednesday, November 29, 2017

Orphan 

Make of yourself an orphan 

Cut ties with all that keeps you bound 

True love’s here to set you free 

Not hold you back from who you’re meant to be


Take some time alone

And forget all you’ve ever known 

Remember your soul will take you higher 

But it lies within this skin and bone 


If you’re looking for a mirror 

Look deep down inside 

Your own face is reflected 

In what you’ve learned to hide 


Let go of your old life 

Set out and see what you’ll find

Let go of your old life 

To really feel alive


Friday, October 27, 2017

Paperwhite Princess--written in 2012

What am I hungry for

If not the booze or the food

Or the thrills I've been having

To satisfy the emptiness

Been looking to find me, God

And begin this fearless recovery

But I'm stuck in this cycle

That's bringing me down

Cuz I don't know who'll be here

When I come around

A paperwhite princess

Dances around in my head

Telling me to be exactly like her

But I just can't tell

If that's what I want

I don't wanna pretend

I'm something I'm not

I've been searching some time now

To hold onto something

When I clench these cold hands

I slip thru my wanting fingers like sand

One step into something

And then three steps back

When will I be enough?

When will I be enough?

Wednesday, October 11, 2017

One Day We'll See

When the smoke begins to clear 

And the fire fades to ash 

Our boundaries torn and tattered

We'll rise again together 


No walls to stand between us 

To keep us from our knowing

That I am you and we are free 

One day we'll see

One day we'll see

Monday, September 25, 2017

She Couldn't Hide

She was a tender soul 

With a fragile mind

And a wild way about her 


She left home young 

With songs unsung 

On paths that tried to bind her 


She went south to north 

And outside in 

And found a well to hold her 


A well so wide 

She couldn't hide 

The voice that lived inside her

Sunday, September 10, 2017

Turning Wheels and Ticking Time

I'm sitting in someone else's home 

But the darkness in this room's my own

I was with you once but now you're gone 

So I face this tired time alone


This fragile heart is split in two

One is mine and one's for you

But if my love always falls thru 

How will I know if love is true?


Turning wheels and ticking time 

Will bring me to a truth that's mine 

But only if I break and cry

And open up new eyes that shine


But shining isn't all it seems 

When human eyes can barely see

That life and death are merely streams

That flow into each other's dreams


Turning wheels and ticking time 

Will bring me to a truth that's mine 

But only if I break and cry

And open up new eyes that shine


So wake up, dear, to all your pain 

And know all that will remain 

Is something lost and something gained 

So take the chance to live again 


Turning wheels and ticking time 

Will bring me to a truth that's mine 

But only if I break and cry

And open up new eyes that shine


Friday, August 25, 2017

We Find Our Way

We find our way

Through twists and turns

By bliss we wander 

Near grace we learn


We dance to settle 

Sit still to move

Our mind is shallow 

Until it's new 


If death is lonely 

I'll die with you

If birth is holy 

Let's both live true 


So tired of the give and take 

Romance and family 

Our great escape 

Take time to give 

For our souls' sake 

To ones that feed us 

And rarely take


If death is lonely 

I'll die with you

If birth is holy 

Let's both live true 


A story takes me

As it will 

Yours like mine

Is such a thrill 

Let me hear it 

I'll feel the burn 

And hear mine too 

Your pain in turn 


If death is lonely 

I'll die with you

If birth is holy 

Let's both live true 

Saturday, August 19, 2017

Judgment’s Just a Mirror

When the melancholy wells inside me 

To rise and spill beyond the boundary 

A line we carve with heroes' names 

Scathes our human earthly ways 


So judge me into boxes tight 

That keep the day out and the night

Til shame will hurt both you and I 

The cries I cry are yours and mine 


I'm just a mirror for you now

So drop those walls 

And fall down proud 

Upon both knees

That need the ground 

Til feet can find you 

Where you're found


You point and stare at rambling men

Who don't know where things start or end 

But listen close and you will hear

The void inside you learned to fear 


I'm just a mirror for you now

So drop those walls 

And fall down proud 

Upon both knees

That need the ground 

Til feet can find you 

Where you're found


But all that's lost

Can soon be found

Beneath the pride 

That keeps us bound

To heroes that hold nothing true 

And Gods that never talk to you


Cuz the rambling man 

Knows more than most 

The children too 

That speak of ghosts 

The unborn world we'll never know

Lives deep inside us

As it grows


I'm just a mirror for you now

So drop those walls 

And fall down proud 

Upon both knees

That need the ground 

Til feet can find you 

Where you're found

A Center I Forgot

When I feel no earth below me

And no God up there to hold me

I know the dark and lonely 

Is slowly taking hold 


The pictures falling off the wall

They fell and broke some time ago

Shattered things and splintered dreams 

Sprawl naked on the floor


Twisted tears fall harder now

The years will take their toll 

But gather them in tender hands 

They're worth their weight in gold 


Pain and peace are wings to me

Two wings that tie a knot

The center holds them gracefully

A center I forgot 


Whirl and spin the time away 

If your heart says to live that way 

Or sit so still eyes open wide 

And take the time that's passing by


Pain and peace are wings to me

Two wings that tie a knot

The center holds them gracefully

A center I forgot 


Falling fast they fade away

All the parts that shouldn't stay

To let them go is peace and pain 

Held forever in refrain


Pain and peace are wings to me

Two wings that tie a knot

The center holds them gracefully

A center I forgot 


Monday, July 31, 2017

A Glass of Wine and a Lullaby

I don't have any children

That I can call my own

Still trying to grow this girl 

Resting on her lonesome thrown


Seeds and dreams and childish things 

Still finding ground to rise inside 

From a well that spills downward 

With the gravity of time 


A glass of wine and a lullaby

Is all I need from you tonight 

These roots will weave down deep

To rolling rivers out of sight 


I guess I am as I always was 

A childish heart with stars for eyes 

Reaching up into the sky 

I missed the waters drifting by 


A glass of wine and a lullaby

Is all I need from you tonight 

These roots will weave down deep

To rolling rivers out of sight 


I'm headed out to distant streams

That catch the water from my dreams

To break the dam I close my eyes 

And ride the water as it glides 


A glass of wine and a lullaby

Is all I need from you tonight 

These roots will weave down deep

To rolling rivers out of sight 

Tuesday, July 18, 2017

For Those Hearts That Can Choose

How come people you never thought you'd know 

Know exactly who you are?

They read your mind a long time ago 

And we both feel the scars 


They say that empathy is a saintly thing

And we all know it's true

I commit the murder right next to you

And I feel the guilt too


I die like the death in you 

While I follow your muse

She'll rise with the breath in me 

And whisper the truth


The crooked stall that we all avoid 

In the corner that turned dark 

Spoken words written on the wall 

Of homeless men in the park 


I die like the death in you 

While I follow your muse

She'll rise with the breath in me 

And whisper the truth


Peace is far but hope's near 

For those hearts that can choose 

To bare their own pain 

While they love others too 


I die like the death in you 

While I follow your muse

She'll rise with the breath in me 

And whisper the truth

Friday, June 30, 2017

12:12am

I watch seagulls fly against the wind

And wonder whether God would send 

His breath against a being strong

To teach her just where she went wrong


She'll toss and turn up in the sky

I wonder how she stays so high

But in the trouble she descends

Upheaval brings her down again


Waves are crashing on the sand

They fall just to begin again

Waves are crashing on the sand

They fall just to begin again


If ticking clocks and passing days 

Can hit us hard like crashing waves

We'll fall and break and die once more 

And rise anew as something pure 


Waves are crashing on the sand

They fall just to begin again

Waves are crashing on the sand

They fall just to begin again

Saturday, June 24, 2017

Where Do I Start?

Where do I start

Can I begin 

I spin the wheel round again 

And pray to God the spinning ends 

Cuz time will kill us all, my friends 


These broken dreams have tender wings 

Too young to fly, too strong to die


The siren sings to ease the pain 

That never did a thing but say,

"You can't escape me anyway

No matter how you hide or pray"


These broken dreams have tender wings 

Too young to fly, too strong to die


A silver cape and shiny lights 

Will always drag me out at night 

But maybe just stay in and try

To sit alone beside your life 


These broken dreams have tender wings 

Too young to fly, too strong to die


But if you take the time, you see

Hold it close and let it breathe

The circle will begin again 

A life that starts will never end 


These mended dreams with golden wings 

Will reach so high for you and I 

So free your mind and lose the spite

Retrace your path and set it right


When We Taste the Truth

The hustle and bustle

A violent flow

Of distant lovers...


We'll never know 

How to sit silent 

In a crowded room

Or dance heart forward

With their eyes on you 


The comfort is blinding 

When we're breaking thru 

But the pain will cower 

When we taste the truth 

Monday, June 5, 2017

Lose It All

We fly, we fall

We lose it all

And so begin again 

A little less than sane this time 

The valley pulls us in


The birds up high 

Are not like I 

My feet are planted still

I reach my hands into the sky

And dive into the ocean wide

This Skin

This skin, this skin

It holds us in

Yet lets us touch the wind

The light that shines 

Behind our eyes

Glows patiently within 


To meet the outside world 

It waits...

To find its long-lost kin

That lies within the depths of all 

Who don't know where to begin 

Wednesday, February 15, 2017

The Hand

To be wild, to be wild, to be free

What is wild, who is wild, who is she?

Is she me, she was me, who am I?

I am I, I am I, yet to be


Here is now, then was now, where is peace?

Here is now, lost somehow, thru the seams

Seamen cry, mermaids fly, water gleams

You and I, we will die, we will dream 


The child is wild, like you and I, claim to be 

The light we touch, when we gain sight, falls from reach

The rabbit hole, that Alice saw, runs ever deep 

Dare to crawl, forget the sin, and find what's real


If we emerge, we'll see the blur

Of clashing lights 

Red and green, unhinged strangers in our minds 

Wrong and right and yellow three, The Hand still swings

The Hand is mine, The Hand is yours, it gives us wings.

Tuesday, January 10, 2017

Fantasy

Rivers run the whole way thru

Only when we allow them to

Let's flood the dams we always knew

Til we break thru, til we break thru


The wild one there was always you

Within a field the lonely grew

Their flowers seem to know me too

You know the truth, I'll know it soon


Alone I am, alone I'll be

Til you begin to notice me

And reach you will with all your might

We'll die and rise as one that night


Is this my soul that's calling me

Or flesh and bone where lovers meet

I won't know here, I won't know now

But fate will turn the wheel somehow


If this is just a fantasy

You hold the truth to set me free

Please whisper in my ear, my dear

I need to hear you loud and clear